Richard Arellano.ME

Today isn’t really a rant now its sort of I feel happy and want to share it with you sort of post. Today I feel pretty calm, pretty happy and pretty much feel as if I could and that I am Happy. Let me explain, something pretty amazing happened last night to me and I must say that I can’t even tell you what it was, because you may not believe me. Then again, this isn’t about trying to prove anything.

You know when you wake up after just a few hours of sleep and you ask yourself, was it worth it? When you wake up and you find that things are so much better for you then maybe you had thought at first. When you know you did something so great, that was so meaningful to someone who to them it means something. That is when you know that even on just a few hours of sleep you can make it through the day, you can be happy.

That’s how I feel right now, and it’s really not even an issue for me when I think about how much time, hard work I put into my websites and other online projects. That even know I pride myself on being the best for myself but when you spend over an hour doing something only to find that no one watched it, no one cares that no one even is going to hear you. You must question.. should I bother? What is the point?

Let me tell you something, sure it really sucks when you spend an hour doing something, something you spend days to make just perfect, even when you have limits that others don’t. When you do all of that and you put your soul, your heart into something and try to be the best. Only to no only find out you messed up by not turning on your mic.. but to know someone at that very moment was doing it too.. that they did it better and are more popular than you. I have to ask… am I just wasting my time?

It feels good to know that I’m not and even know I didn’t get what I was hoping for, I ask.. why would anyone watch to start with. That is why I want to keep going, even if I keep going and no one ever notices.. someday when I’m gone.. someone will notice and go. How did no one ever take notice? That is how legacy’s are born. That is how boys become men so to speak. You do because it’s the right thing to do, because it will mean something to someone, even if it’s only ONE person. That is all it matter, all that will ever matter to me that if I make that one person smile, if I put a small light of happiness in their day. Then all the hardship, the pain, the suffering the doubt.. it makes it worth it.

I decided this last Wednesday that I was gonna take the weekend off, so as a result I didn’t get anything done, no new posts went out nothing in terms of development was done on my new ongoing projects Majin Planet and XfireSystems. The main reason for this was I just need to take a break from thinking so much about this all.

What I want is to really focus and not be shy anymore to put myself out there and show people who I can hang with the best too.. that I am the best. That and I also needed to do a whole lot of fixing of my PC. I use an Alienware Laptop which I got a few months ago. It works okay I suppose, it’s not really the best in terms of working 100% of the time. Which is kind of sad given its suppose to be an Alienware.. which are supposed to be really good. Not this one, that’s what I get for buying it used.

Anyways I spend a few hours doing a full-backup of all my files, which was a nightmare. It took forever and when I finally was ready, I was happy that setting my laptop back to the default system setup, which means it clear all my data went really smooth. It only took about 10 minutes to finish. Then I spend most of the weekend just watching TV and setting up my computer again. You now installing all my programs so I can work on my websites.

Ran into some issues, first I have a small hard drive on my system. I really wanted the one that was like 400GB or something.. but when I order it they didn’t have anymore so I had to go with the next cheapest which was nearly half of that at 250GB space. Which really isn’t enough.

I mean seriously World of Warcraft itself it like 10GB or something, then there was Star Wars I did buy and played it but I had issues with the graphic settings, it ran way too slow and was choppy and then oh I guess I should talk about that later why I’m not playing it right now nor do I have it even installed. Then you know I got Rift when it was really cheap and play it for like 2 weeks. Then there are other games like LoL and mindcraft I hear about that I’m trying to get into. Then you know.. I might even want to try out Guild Wars 2…

The point is.. I don’t have the hard drive space to have all these large games plus have software for video and graphic editing not even counting video media files. I’ve taken to the point I don’t download anything I don’t need. Now if I want to watch something I just look on YouTube or check Hulu. Yes I use to and sometimes still do download stuff.. which okay DOES make the issue of illegal downloading worst.. BUT I nearly buy everything I ever download anyways at some point. My view on that is well.. if you couldn’t buy it to start with… using it for free isn’t going to hurt.

I guess my real point I’m making is, if a movie comes out and I want to see… I generally will go to the movie theater and see it once. If the movie looks stupid to me I don’t go, I don’t buy it I don’t ever both with it. The movie never gets my money, but then someone says Hey review this movie or they ask me about and I think well maybe it wasn’t as stupid as I thought. So I download it.. or I find it online stream to watch. Guess what? If I end up liking it I’ll buy it.

That’s the point and I never try nor do I want to make money off things like that. Which is why I was so against Anime Media Sites back in the day. Serious the whole pay me $5 a month for the data-transfer and I’ll offer you ALL this FREE fan subs; That pissed me off because 99% of all anime that did that.

But anyways not to really get off topic, I had an issue with my one Hard Drive, as I have two Seagate Hard Drives of 240GBs and one of them wouldn’t show up. Which was silly being I was just using it and it just so happen to be the media one I was using. Personally what I want is a big hard drive to keep all my files on so really upgrading computers or in the case like this weekend I had to reset to factory settings would be so much easier.

So yeah that’s what I did this weekend, I really am gonna look into getting a bigger hard drive to move everything on to one. After all I only have so many USB ports to plug into now.

It took me a little bit of time to get this site going, mostly I was looking to build something that was very simple. I didn’t want all the flash or whistles that you might find on any given website. As you can see there are no ads, I don’t need them here and really this is just a place for me to vent.

Things in my life are for the most part stable but also a bit on edge. I’m really been working hard to build up a good website, I haven’t thought much about what I want to do with them in terms of why. Why am I doing it, I think the main reason, other then maybe to make some money, maybe to get information out there; is simple.

Make Friends.

Yeah you know, its nice to make money doing what you like to do. I think the sad truth is that I knew back in 2000 that the real way to promote and build a community was going to be something of a social game. When Myspace hit, I remember that being the outlet for this and I gave it a try starting a Myspace page for Majin Planet. It went pretty okay I would say but as time went on and on it just got to the point Myspace became unusable for me with all the bad code that site ran on.

Overall.. I think pretty much I plan on making things a big more stream line now with Twitter, Facebook and the others, which I need to get into and build on to reach out to. It’s gonna be a work in process that is for sure.

Hello and welcome to my personal web blog. What will you find here at RichardArellano.me simply a personal web blog, it’s not met for me to get well-known or to get a name for myself. It’s about feeding my thoughts and ideas to the web. Who knows maybe someone will read one of my stories and think, that is something I want talk about.

The web is about spreading ideas, free information and ideals. That is what this blog is going to be about, I wont put any ads on the site, you wont find them, their wont be any of that going on. What you will find is just my solid ideas and hopes, dreams and more.

I’m gonna be talking about personal things, stuff I don’t normally talk about and asking questions about myself. I’ll likely do some sort of daily blog where I just make a post and write. So as you can guess some post will be very long, while others might be short. I’ll try to write unrated and unedited (other than grammar and spelling errors). The main goal is to just have a place for me to write.

One of my ideas is maybe a daily video blog, but I’m not sure how I want to go about that. I was thinking of doing it all in one site, but in all truth, these are my personal thoughts and I don’t want them to get mixed up with the money-making ideals and other content I write for NeckarUnrivaled.com, as you can tell that is my online name, where I act a set way but that’s not really who I might be in real life. That is where this site is for, to discover who I am for those who don’t know me, for me to make new friends and to just share ideals.

Please feel free to comment if you like, the site is still under work, I want to add my own images and I still need to turn on features and install add ons and all that stuff. I want to keep it as simply as I can, I’ll also be setting up a twitter very soon.